Oh whoever whoever curses me, I’ll only look at you
Even when I’m born again, it’s still only you
(Still Still) Even as time goes by
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I’m afraid of living with my eyes open
Because I know if I look for you I won’t see you
It seems better to fall asleep exhausted
After longing for you
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Hi! Haven't really been on here much, because I was sick? Ughh.. no.. that was a lie. Though, I must admit, I was really sick. I came to school Wednesday... thats it. I think it was a fever? Everyone in the whole house is sick. The talent show is coming up! :) I can't wait. I am Jonghyun, justina is taemin, Mina is Minho, Mei mei is Key, Katelyn is Onew. I need to get my vocals stronger again. My voice is soo weak now T^T. Have I ever mentioned how I just really hate fakes and liars. All they do is lie lie lie to make themselves seem cooler. They follow trends to stand out. It's like WTF! MOTH!!!IHATEHERSOMUCH! I dont really know why she makes me so mad. Everything about her is so annoying. "I continue to hate those I originally hated because they keep doing things I hate" Taekyung said this, and I couldn't agree more. Actually after I get to know a person a little more, I like them, but this is not the point. She's just so ugly to me, inside and out. Things at home don't really seem to pick up either. I seem so... hated? No... out of place. I dont fit in, and I cant wait to leave. Im an only girl and a stepchild. It seems like Im just someone in the corner, watching everyone have a good time. I cant make myself fit right. I always get looked at, like "youre not allowed to do that to my child". or "Your being to invasive, get out." I think thats why I try to be the least trouble I could. But its so hard. I want to be a kid, not always be so mature all the time. I miss Joseph. He would understand.
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